THE MISSIONARY’S KID’S VIEW! FOR YOUR EYES ONLY?
Editor’s Note- Recently I opened my email and found a letter from a Missionary’s Kid that really touched my heart. I am sure after reading it your heart will be touched also. So many times we do not know the hurt that our children feel when as a Pastor, Evangelist, or Missionary Kid they suffer attacks or see attacks on their family from supposedly Saints of God or church people. In many cases when one come’s to the Lord Jesus Christ and is filled with the Holy Spirit. They receive a powerful experience. Because of their respect of the man of God that revealed to them this wonderful experience with God, they then turn to their Overseer and will follow any teaching that they teach even becoming a Pharisee which Jesus Christ warned against. Matthew 23:13 Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye compass sea and land to make one proselyte, and when he is made, ye make him twofold more the child of hell than yourselves. I hate to reveal this but many of our early Minister’s could not read when they first came to God. As a result of this many began to preach their private interpretation of the Word of God sometimes even their own personal convictions that others had to keep as salvation issues. If you did not keep their commandments you were lost and many times judged. Forgiveness would sometimes be forgotten by those that followed the Pharisee walk even though those that were children of God had been forgiven. One of these ideas was that if a Minister fell he could never get back up and continue in the ministry even though the Word of God in Romans 11:29 states that the gifts and calling of God is without repentance. (turning away from)
During my tenure as a Pastor I forgave many former ministers that had fallen and tried to help them get back on their feet and fight Satan one more time. Some turn out well other’s tried to cut my throat, but the most important thing was I forgave them. You will not go wrong when you make forgiveness the most important ingredient in your walk with God. My Pastor Robert Glass spoke to me about forgiving and his statement was,” Brother Duke, the hardest ones to forgive are your Brothers and Sisters in the Lord and they are the ones that will hurt you most.” It did not take me long to find that out and it probably will not take you long either. My prayer is that what this Missionary Kid went through might prepare other Missionary kids. God bless all of our Missionaries.
Here is a copy of that letter:
February 21st 12:00 a.m. I was awakening by a strong presence in my room. I am not able to explain in words the feeling I was experiencing. So I won’t even make the attempt to explain.
As I laid there I began to pray for Gods help because of the overwhelming guilt that I’ve experienced, due to my shortfalls in my walk with & without God Almighty.
I was brought up in a home of a Pentecostal preacher and experienced & seen wide ranges of standards – beliefs – and in many cases, very judgmental views within the Pentecostal churches. I truly believe in the message that the UPC teaches. Yet through all of the good, there is a large gap in the area of forgiveness, towards struggling brothers & sisters in the Lord. I felt impressed in my heart, that revival or lack thereof is predicated on how we look at people. Judging the book by its cover, if I may.
I want to share a couple of life experiences that I (Missionary kid) have witnessed, while traveling around the country with my parents. As a very young boy, I was observant to things that were said and or happened while visiting Pentecostal churches. Here are a couple examples that plague me and disturb my mind. I recall one incident when a church either cancelled or did not except our invitation to be with them while on deputation. It was all about perception, and not the condition of a person’s heart or walk with God. The minister said that the photo of my parents looked like my mother had cut her hair. This never was the case and was very detrimental to our family. This was said to other ministers and of course this went around to other churches. Unfortunately as we all know, bad news travels fast and in many cases believed by many. Another incident that stands out and bothers me to this day, was when an assistant pastor had got divorced (no fault of his own) yet many churches condemned him and would not allow him to preach in their churches. We have ministers that have fallen from the grace of God and later come back to Pentecostal church only to be shunned. It is a bigger problem than most ministers want to accept. You’re alienated from the click. We serve a mighty God that forgives us daily, yet our churches refused to do so, in many cases. We must be cognate that God forgives us at the same measure we are willing to forgive others.
I often wonder how the Apostle Paul, Apostle Peter, Danial, King David, Jonah & others would fair in our organization after their sinful acts, Denial of Jesus and running from God. Why do we make it more difficult to come back to our Lord and Savior “Jesus Christ” than God himself does?
I promise if compassion was given and welcoming arms were stretched out for the hurting and those that stumble and the judgmental spirit would subside we could help many souls return home. I speak from experience.
I feel God spoke to my heart and this is why I am writing. To have revival, God impressed on my hearts it must start with forgiveness of others and restrain from being judgmental even to the extent of placing our personal convictions on one another. If it’s not biblical then it shouldn’t be forced on to others. As I said earlier, you cannot judge a book by its cover. I know many individuals with beautiful long hair; dresses to their ankles, yet carry a very nasty spirits (attitude) condemning fellow saints because they don’t dress like them. And I’ve seen others not dressed so prim & proper, praising and worshiping God Almighty & carrying a beautiful spirit. Why is this? Maybe it’s what is on the inside (of the book). Don’t take this wrong. I believe in holiness standard. Not man made standards.
I am not much of a writer but felt I had to say this, in hope this falls in the right hands. I don’t even have a clue who to send this too at this point but I’m tired of running from God and want to do his will in my life. I have never been wakened from a deep sleep with such a strong presence in my room as has just happened to me.
I do ask for all the prayers of the saints and ministry that I may be used of God and that I may impact someone to serve the One and only True God “Jesus”.
May God do a work in the last days, and my prayer is that I may help harvest the field and not continue to bury my talent.
I want to win family and friends. If we can only show compassion and forgiveness revival will come to our churches. I know this is a word from the Lord. I know this because of the power I felt in my bedroom that woke me from a deep sleep. I have not served the Lord like I should but God knows my heart better than I even do. Right now my heart is heavy with grief of my past and shamefulness of what I’ve done in my life. I want to do his will moving forward.
Please pray for my family & I
God Bless you all,
IN CLOSING PLEASE NOTE THAT THE BEST WAY FOR OTHER’S TO DESIRE YOUR STANDARDS ARE FOR THEM TO BE SEEN AND NOT FORCED DOWN THEIR THROATS AND THAT YOU HAVE A SPIRIT THAT IS OF GOD (SWEET SWEET SPIRIT)